Since the marathon, I've kind of been in a long, slow shutdown mode in terms of writing this blog and running. I have thought about sitting down and writing a post many, many a time but never did. There are thoughts and ideas and events and changes that have been swirling around, but just not making down in writing. I've been trying to focus and to zero in on a purpose and that has slowed me down instead of pushed me forward.
I've had lots of days where I thought about running but never hit the road, although it was at least a little more frequent than the ZERO days of posting to this blog. It just hasn't been as much as I would have liked, or probably need. There was no big fall race on my schedule which gave me a out when it was too hot, too early, too hard. I like to (or more accurately need to) to have something like a race to motivate me to put in the longer miles, and I haven't had that this summer/early fall. A few miles here and there have felt almost sufficient, but not quite. Not really close.
The running and the writing, no matter how good or how bad either is on any given day, both kind of give me an outlet which I think has been sorely lacking but it's time to make room for both of them once again. The next race is now on the calendar. The motivation to keep writing is rekindled...raise awareness, support friends and family, promote wellness and good health, and share Be good. Be strong. and what it means to many.
So, I am rebooting. Starting up after a shut down with the hopes that things will be fixed. Whatever "fixed" means. Maybe a little better or with a little more focused. Maybe just refreshed, like a webpage when stuck. Whatever it means, this is my restart.
One post down. One run in.
I feel better already.
